Perfect. Just wonderful day to talk about rape in my class. Glad I didn’t finish the reading..guess then at least I’d be a little prepared though…I just want to run away.

shiftyshrike asked: There's no shame in wanting to take a break. Don't let society make you feel guilty, fuck their standards for who "deserves" what. You can't think like that. The whole work-then-play ideal is bullshit. No one gets to decide what's good for you. Do what makes you feel good, if that means slacking a little, then do it girl! It's better for you to take care of yourself than wear yourself down.

Thank you <3 It’s been a rough 24 ish hours but you always make me feel better Ramey!

I just really want a break. Where I can just chill out, relax, watch TV, read things I want to read, and not feel guilty about it. Yet I don’t really feel like I deserve it. I don’t work that hard, and I just had a family vacation, and just so many people have it so much worse than me. i haven’t been on the job search and I need to be. But I just want a break. But that makes me feel selfish. I don’t know.

I just really don’t feel well on any level. My stomach has been hurting all day, and I slept weird on my shoulder/upper arm I think and it still hurts from this morning. I’m overwhelmed and behind in school and thinking I should have dropped one of my classes and I’m trying to do too much. I’m simultaneously thinking too much and trying not to think at all about today. I have bills I need to pay and barely enough money. I’m sad. I don’t want to be here. I’m worried about my mom. I just feel like complete shit.

Anonymous asked: You are so amazing for getting through this! Thankyouu for being so strong and not giving up you inspire me so much I really don't know how to express it! Just thankyou! Xx.

You are so kind, anon. Thank you so much. This makes me so happy! Stay strong <3

It was 2 years ago today.

Part of me wants to just tell the world and the other part wants no one to know ever.

My mind is going to really horrible places right now and it needs to stop.

So many constant flashbacks already. There’s too much the same. I don’t like it. I feel like a zombie. I haven’t finished my homework. I need to finish my homework. Yet I can barely move. I have the feeling tonight will be a sleepless night.

I’m so exhausted and I don’t even know why.

Can I just sleep through tomorrow? Nightmare-free. Please?